Life doesn't pause for grief
I was given news today about my mother that completely shook me. Since then, everything feels foggy, like I’m not fully in reality. It feels like my family is stuck in a constant loop of bad luck, one thing after another. I try to stay positive, I really do, but it gets heavy when the hits just keep coming.
It doesn’t help that my own health has been a slow downward spiral too. I find myself longing for easier days, but truthfully, things haven’t felt easy since around 2012. Sometimes it genuinely feels like we shifted dimensions, as silly as that sounds - some off conspiracy bullcrap.
I know I’m supposed to create a fantasy. I know what I “sell.” But when you’re actively losing people you love, it becomes hard to show up and give that version of yourself. I try not to share too much of my personal life because I’m not looking for pity or condolences. I just need somewhere to let my thoughts exist outside my own head. Therapy helps, but it only goes so far.
If you’re someone who serves me, or is considering it, understand this: yes, I go through waves of heavy, negative things. But no matter my mindset, no matter how I feel, I take pride in my word and in the connections I build. That doesn’t change.
That’s why I write these blogs. That’s why I allow depth. Because I’m real, just like you. I’m not a persona that exists only for fantasy. I’m not detached. I’m not one dimensional. I’m human.
My life isn’t always pretty. Sometimes it’s painful. Sometimes it’s overwhelming. But I still show up. I still carry myself with strength. I still choose to stand in my power. No matter what happens, I remain beautiful, grounded, and true to myself, my work, and those who choose to be part of my world.
If it seems like I’ve been venting more lately, it’s because I needed an outlet. This is mine.
And if you can see beyond the darker parts of a domme’s life, maybe you’ll stay. Maybe you’ll begin something here anyway.
Because not everything has to be fantasy all the time.
Sometimes, it’s just real.
xoxo Serenity ♡
